Sunday, April 3, 2005

Knocking On Heavens Door

Despite the delightful crisp Spring freshness that pervaded the air, there was a sad whisper amongst birds this morning. Even the leaves refrained from crackling in the wind....they slowly swayed as if being dragged.

  The passing of the Pope, and Terri have blanketed the news......and I knew too well, there were others this week...many, many others. "My" I muttered ...."it must be a busy day at Heavens door.".......   My mind took a momentary but horrible view of the many that I may have yet to mourn. I prayed for mercy.

   I could do nothing but fill my day with mindless chores. Rake leaves, clean the pool filter, wash the car and the dogs, organize the laundry area, ...........  dusk was approaching, and I applauded my small but neccessary accomplishments. "It's been a good day, afterall" I thought. As I was reeling the hose back on its rack ,my son came from the house with the phone in his hand..."for you" he said.  It was a woman from work......she was calling to tell me that my dear friend and co worker of 22 years had just passed away from a heart attack. He was 49.  We were like brothers. Because we argued so often, many thought we were husband and wife.

     22 years ago he came here from Turkey.....spoke no English . He was a hard worker, fast learner...we hit  it off immediately. I taught him the trade..and he progressed...He followed my every move...he heard my deepest woes, he shared in my greatest joys. We shared our lunches.....the holiday meals from our homes... I would interpret and explain matters and customs of this land that was so strange to him.. His greatest desire, was to save enough airfare to vist Turkey so he could visit his daughter..It was a lousey economy and the shifting of American manufacturing to overseas that stunted his plans.

      I am still in shock....the shock prevents the sadness from entering and shutting me down. More pain will set in as I will have to tell his co workers in the morning , that he is no longer with us.

    I am glad to say he put his heart to good use...he loved and cared for so many...always willing to please....He never liked waiting on lines (he died while waiting on line at Home Depot)....Richard,....I can tell, the line at Heavens Door is long.....you will be in excellent company.....I miss you already.....your "brother" Marc

16 comments:

sistercdr said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

delela1 said...

Marc, I am saddened by this message from you.  Words can not express...
Thinking of you at this time.
~Dona

wwahinebikini said...

Marc, I trust your strong faith will carry you through this difficult time.  I am so sorry for your loss.  --Peggy

jbenjack said...

hi
new to your journal, sorry for your loss, I did read a few other entries and will definite come back. It is nice to read a man's  point of view once in a while.

jbenjack said...

PS My link to my journal

robinngabster said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you sweetie.

astaryth said...

So sorry about your friend... sometimes it just seems that things keep coming till you just feel overwhelmed... But, I am a firm believer that the universe doesn't give you more than you can handle...
http://journals.aol.com/astaryth/AdventuresofanEclecticMind

tschamberland said...

My heart goes out to you, the loss of a close friend is something that changes you and life as you know it.  Hold the memories close and they will get you through this difficult time.  All my best.
Tammy

vernae69 said...

I'm sure he took a part of you with him....sounds like you were a good friend, and you were definitely in his heart...the line will not be long, for you ;)

jen73169 said...

I'm so sorry for your loss.
Jennifer

karensull12 said...

Sorry for your loss.

grofsand said...

A warm Thank You to all who have stopped by ...... Peace....to us all!

mamaklute said...

Oh no  marc I am so sorry  (((hug))) I know there is no words that can make you feel  better. I am so sorry...

alphawoman1 said...

I am sorry.  He sounded like a wonderful friend.

gdireneoe said...

Wow.  I know you've probably processed this by now...but I'm fairly confident I know the depth of feeling in your heart too...it shines.  Belated and warmest hugs for this loss Marc...hugs upon hugs. ;)  C.  http://journals.aol.com/gdireneoe/thedailies

siennastarr said...

Beautiful entry Marc... thank you for sharing it with me..   It is so sad when someone so young is taken from us, but at the same time the memories of that person, and just being able to say that we knew them, and were a part of their lives, makes it all worth while..

Hugs,
Jackie